you wanna know why? cause i honestly dont know why i cant get things together. I had it all together at the beginning of the semester. i did all my hw. i got everything done. and i need to get back on that track. i need less hours this week at work to get all my hw done but they schedule me more.
you know what i realized. there are people out here that have more work than i do, and they get it all done. like their job requires them to get more things done than i do and they manage. i have what? two papers and a final project to get finished? so no screwing around. this shit is real.
on another front. i probably shouldnt be going to a pacers game, but ill read on the way home and have collin drive. i probably shouldnt take him but then again. i just dont know what im doing. austin is mad as hell at me, and i just want it all to be over. not like austin and i to be over, but for everything to figure itself out. I want to know what i want and what is going to be right.
THE FUCK! i dont get anything that is going on here.
I’m not the biggest believer in god but right now, I have to wonder why this is being done to me. Why now? None of this is choices. All coincidence and whatnot. Why is god making this happen to me? He’s given me everything but with one complication.
Uh rude. Idk what it is lately but anytime I try and talk to one of my friends he’s just as cold as ice. And I’m
Not quite sure what I’ve done. He’s like the only one I’m uncomfortable around. Bc he’s being so cold.
